It has been a long time since I posted. I wrote a post for Jonny's first birthday but for some reason it didn't post, and I have been so busy that I have not had time to re-write it. It is crazy how fast the time went by. His birthday came and went, and he continues to grow and amaze me every day.
He is walking more than he is crawling now. He is so much more independent. He likes to feed himself, he likes to get where he wants to go on his own, he doesn't want to be held, and he doesn't want a kiss anymore.
But so many other things have changed in my life in the last year. I have a lot of family around that is so loving and supportive, but I don't have very many "friends." I only had a few close friends in the past anyway. One is away at college, so we don't talk very often. In-fact I don't even remember the last time we spoke. I have a friend that is younger than I am, and now that I am a Mommy I must not be as cool to hang out with. I also had a friend that I loaned money to, and none of it was ever paid back. Sadly it has ruined our friendship. Not because of me, but because she avoids me, I am sure she thinks that I am upset. Truth be told I am not upset about the money, I am upset that she think that I would let it ruin our friendship.
BUT all of this has taught me a lesson. A lesson that many people have tried to teach me in the past. It is a lesson that no matter how many times you are told, you can only truly understand it once you have experienced it. I have learned that your only true friends are the ones that reside in your family. You can pick your friends, but if they don't pick you it doesn't matter. You can't pick your family, but that's okay.
No matter how screwed up your family is, look around, there is one more screwed up than yours. Possibly even right next door. But the one thing that is for sure at least with my family, is that when push comes to shove they will be there for me. If I just need to pick up the phone and vent someone is there. If I need advise someone is there, if I need a baby sitter, someone is there. AND I hope that they know that I am here for them too!
The other thing that I have learned in the last year is what an AMAZING husband I have. He is so good to me, and more importantly he is super good for my son. There are a lot of men out there that just aren't. My husband does it all! He works to support the family so that I can work very part time, and be home with my son the rest of the time. He comes home, and if dinner is not made on the table, he does it. If I am making dinner and the little one is fussy he tends to him. He feeds him, he baths him, he reads to him every night. He gets on the floor and plays with him, he takes him for walks. He truly does it all. There are so many guys out there, some provide for the family, and some don't even do that. Some could care less if their child has what they need. Many would rather go get a video game, than make sure their child has food on the table.
My husband would go without to be sure that his family had what it needed.
Every marriage has rocky points, don't get me wrong. But when I sit back and think about it, I don't need friends, family is great, but as long as I have my husband and my son everything would be okay.
